My Blue BeaR

It was given to me by my love. It was a sign I use to ask in the Lord that whoever shall give me a stuffed toy with blue in color would be my true love. Finally that's it. Someone has given me a blue stuffed toy during a no occasion day for both of us. I have named it kling2 after a duckling(long story for you to ask)

That night I was planning to say its over and just put to an end whats with in us. What I mean to say is control our feelings and put limits on it because it was wrong and I could say it wasn't meant for us to be together and I am thinking I am not deserving the love that was offered to me. But I don't know what to say or how would I say because I was really astonished of what I have receive....It was a sign I've been waiting for so long...and I don't want not to take it away. Signs from God are a holy gift.

The night came and the plan was pursued. I have hurt the person I have ever love like no others. My mind was battling either the sign of God or my weird thinkings. The sign of God was the strongest and I can't take it living my love alone and hurting. Everyday and every night we are together I've been falling. My love grows more and deep. I hold on to the love that the person is showing me. I don't have idea what to do anymore either I will leave or not. My tears fall when I heard the words saying "never let me go". It was touching and I was very sensible with that words. I have stayed and not wanting to let go anymore. I hug to say sorry for planning to leave and I promise to love and be strong for both of us.

And my decision is great. I can say that to myself for without my love I can't imagine what would my life be today and tomorrow....But its not about the sign anymore..its about the love that we give in to each other that we stay together up to know.......