Why it was questioned, still compares...

My love still keep questioning what kind...how big..my love is im giving....I am hurting...I could see in the eyes a fear...fear of my love because maybe theres no love in return for me? or Can't believe that I'm giving the love

Still compares me to the past relationship experienced. It was very hurting. I never thought I will hear it again. I know I'm not like her. I am not like her very much..so much different...but there is still comparison. Nevertheless I have to accept it because I wasn't the first. I know how they been through for 3 years, in that 3 years of their relationship, it has grown more that's why everyone knows about them and like them being together hates me. I could feel it they hated me. There comes to a point that I would just say my cryings and hurtings are their happiness and the happiness so much of the ex girlfriend. I know I have compare my love to my past but not as deeper comparison..not much that would hurt my partner.

I keep on saying that I would not leave no one. Yes I won't. As long as my love needs me I will be there. It will be hurting if I hold on and no one holds me back. I would rather die if my love falls out of love for me. I would rather go that no one knows me if my love is just there for me and can't leave me just because of pity and no love existing anymore. It would be a big conscience for me to make a person stay even if the person doesn't want to stay and just staying because of pity and guilt.