Thoughts of Break Up

I thought breaking up and be friends with him gives me more confident and think I also exist and no malice around, but its now upside down. Its more like I am not beside him, I could see that he feels bored when we are the only 2 left.

Yes indeed even it hurts I have to say this, he has fallen out of love in me because of my over jealousy character. I am shouting at him if I am angry and had brought an arms on him. I do not regret this for I believe what I see. What I feel I fought out.

My defense: I am jealous for I could see it in his eyes whether he have or have no passion to be with the other girls. I know him attitude. Even he denies to death. He even once said he has no contentment so this means he doesnt love me that much unlike his ex.