Single Blessedness

Now that its over. I am certified single again. But even if we're together I still feel I am single.

I never ignore the love he has bestowed upon me, but I could feel he has less love in our relationship even though everday I am stating to my mind 'Yes he loves me dearly'.

Even though sometimes when he sees me his world is broken again.  When with his or our friends he had a huge smile but when a snap or glances at me, his eyebrows meets its center and all my actions and talks are all wrong. That's why when in a group I would rather keep silent and no more movements so that he will not be dismay.

I just keep silent and be there for him. Waiting for him, waiting for his attention, his time like last year. Waiting for his care, waiting for his hug and kiss.

I have less share about this to my friends who knows our relationship. Its because he always think that when I tell or share problems with others about us its already backstabbing him. Its not backstabbing intentions, all I need is somebody to lean on and to let out the hurts I have.

I do everything to please him. I have serve, care, love and give all for him. But at the end for one thing I cannot do what he pleases me to do I had receive bad compliments. It is like all efforts and care was gone just for 1 simple thing.

I had endow in this relationship I even have no time for my ownself. Even my body is tired, my sickness on left side really aches underneath the skin, my heart aches going up and down, I still go on for my mind and heart tells me too and for him.

Many bad compliments and lesser good ones. A shadow. A tail. An ill-fated.

Important thing is I still care and love him. and we are friends.

Think

If I think about money or debts, I think and save for the future, for emergency and health used.  Because no one can help me but me.

Love Unconditionally

Something keeps me holding on and that is unconditional love.

But is this love stays on forever?