Time Passes By

As time passes by, as I said to the Lord not to grant my wishes for I have became so bad, but I am still asking and trying to the Lord to help me coping up and move on.

Grant

I had become a very bad person and it has come to a point that I have ask the Lord not to grant my prayers anymore because I don't deserve to be granted.

Spill Out

You have been a very good friend and generous to others that you have forgotten you have a girlfriend, you forgot our vows and plans on future together.

You all forgot those and I knew it when you talk forcing me to be single like you wanted too. And I made a decision to break up giving you what you wanted.

Apparently, you have spill out words again, saying you wanted to be single and no commitment at this time because for 5-6 years you are into relationship. Do you recognize what are you saying about, do you recognize who is in front of you when you utter those words? 5-6 years? you have included your great ex-love moments, what am I to you? continuing your relationship with her of what you have started both? Is this a legacy which I have to accept as a girlfriend?

You always think of yourself while me being stupid to still think for both of us.

For your information this relationship means a lot to me and hoping on early months that there will be no break ups, need spaces, walk outs but I can see that now is impossible.

When you wanted to be single, I think it was easy for you to forget what we have started, to forget our love and devotions.

Unlucky

Im' so unlucky on love. He was into 3-4 years of in a relationship with his great ex-love and 1 year in a relationship with me but sad to say its time for him to say he wants to be single now that we are together. In our time, that's the time he wanted to be single. Maybe something is wrong with me that I am not lucky and his great ex was.

I though of 'us' will be forever but I could see now that this is only a dream that is far beyond reality.

We can't even have time to talk, only when we are sleepy, on daytime there is no spontaneous talking. Is that a talk for him in me already? He has not even talk to me in formal ways about his plans only to those close friends he has that he shares ultimately his dreams. If you ask me what dream he has really within his heart I can't say a word.

Day and Night he is busy on his cyber world. Laughing out loud sometimes. (Us? we can't laugh that much and longer) .While me waiting for him to glance at me or talk to me, while he was asking a favor I grab the oppurtunity that he sees me too.

You Said

I have love you and wanted you to be forever but what did you ask me to do? you ask me if you could have flings and act as single. I never imagine the love of my life would do that.

I thought we could only play single to those people around us everyday who has no idea what we are into, but also to the people knows who you really are, to your friends who knows you very well..how can you do that?

You said it will be forever but you wanted to be single and I am giving you that. You said we love each other but we will have no commitment and awhile ago you stated I will find you a lover. You just don't know how painful it was.

I have gave all my bravery, love, care, time, effort but it was lost just a year for you. Even in our anniversary night before, we had dinner but you have all the attention to the cousins of your great ex-lover and I am there out-of-place in all your chit chats. I thought it was time for both of us coz by tomorrow I will be going home which I have no choice, butyou have not consider that evening as romantic it can be.

What I have done to deserve all this. You said on an early months you wanted me to be your girlfriend and wife but why is it now you wanted me out and consider going with other people. I thought being husband and wife, girlfriend and boyfriend doesnt leave each other behind.

I don't demand your time to be always in my side. What I feel is we are together but your thoughts is not on us and its not on me. You are busy texting and I wont read that anymore because I feel it is restricted and I can't go beyond it. I respect that.

I respect your feelings that's why I will not do anything to make you jealosu or think I am cheating on you. I have learn my lesson previously and I don't want to loose you just like that. Can you make that for me too?